Cheesecake

Yesterday I had some chocolate cheesecake that was in the office. I didn't have as much as I normally would, so that's an improvement. And that's after the couple of times turning down cake and ice cream and some other delicious snacks.

This morning I was being yelled at for something and I got much more mad than I usually have been lately. But i'm sure that without my medication that it would have turned into a full blown altercation and I would have been in a lot of trouble. Instead I kept my cool and didn't get in any trouble at all.

Time Constraints

These past few days I've been staying up late, which is not really that great for me and will more than likely be my excuse for skipping the gym today. That and I intentionally forgot clothes.

But, I've been waking up even later, which hinders my ability to eat a healthy breakfast and lunch. I instead made a peanut butter and jam sandwich on "100% Whole Wheat Bread". However, I've stopped eating bread as often the 3rd or 4th ingredient is HFCS (High Fructose Corn Syrup). So my breakfast was unhealthy and I packed a protein bar for lunch because it's 400 calories I'll be eating that I wouldn't have. I almost forgot my lunch would have been much worse.

I need to start getting to bed earlier in order to live a healthy lifestyle.

Mental Games

Yesterday I was supposed to go to the gym, however I psyched myself out of going. While walking downtown I told myself that people would laugh at me and I became really self conscious. I'll try again tomorrow.

Weekend

That concludes my first five days of dieting and I am still doing good. I went to a graduation party, yet resisted any forms of cookie and cake for some chicken and vegetables. I didn't record my diet over the weekend because I could not record and measure what I ate.

I feel like I've been eating much more but only took in less than 2000 calories the first two days of my diet. So I've been calibrating my diet so that I take in even more calories, even if it feels like I'm eating too much. This is evidence that my previous food intake were more calorie dense and not as filling primarily due to the processed nature of it.

Already I'm beginning to notice physical effects of my diet. While doing some pull-ups I responded much better and didn't struggle as much, despite not doing them. Also, last night I woke up and had diarrhea and again this morning. I may need to take in more dietary fiber. Working out starts today, even though I was up till 12:30 last night. Already feeling pretty good and not too tired at the moment. Going to see how that carries through the day.

First Day of Dieting

Today was my first day of tracking my diet, and I won't even get into exercising extensively yet. I decided not to plan out a diet, primarily due to my lack of preparation in the food itself. So, I've eaten healthier today, taking in a balance of carbs, fats and proteins. However, I simply did not eat enough, taking in only 1850 Calories (kcals).

Being that I'm school I can't eat every 3 hours, so I felt hunger pangs before lunch. Also during my internship and before I got home.

Mentally I felt fine, despite the fact that I am currently lacking concern about school and my future. I don't feel bad or depressed, however, I just am taking life day by day, I suppose.